Is it fair for us to expect – or even demand – that our loved one make significant changes to many parts of their life while we sit on a perch of certitude?
Has your struggle with your loved one's addiction made you cling too tightly to what you think you know, and how you think you need to act?
Has black-and-white thinking become too prevalent, with your loved one and their troublesome behaviors pushed over to one end of the spectrum (that which needs to change) while you –consciously or not – position yourself on the opposite end (that which is dependable, responsible, not addicted, and therefore not in need of change)?
It might be interesting to observe your initial reaction when someone suggests that you, too, may have things to work on or change. If feelings of defensiveness or denial bubble up, this might help you to consider how our loved one feels when others insist (sometimes day after day) that they'd better hurry up and fix what's wrong.
Nobody's perfect. We're all familiar with this phrase, but what's actually hiding behind it?
Is perfection the goal, even though, according to this saying, nobody's ever gonna get there? Or is perfection just more black-and-white thinking?
When you really think about it, perfection does not exist in the human realm. In fact, it's well known that much of what we learn, and what forges us into who we are, comes from the mistakes we make. And life's lessons are learned so much better when we open ourselves to really looking at what it is we did that got us in this fix. Owning our weaknesses can truly be a strength.
I may not have an addiction problem. I may not be flailing around like a lost soul. I might not be causing everyone who loves me to worry ….. BUT I may very well have areas of my life to which I can bring more honesty and openness, in order to embrace the change that I need. Because the change that I need is not the same as the change my loved one needs. Making that distinction is important, because so much of our energy tends to be spent on what our loved one needs to change.
But what about you?
Can these trying times with your loved one actually shed light on what you need the most?
Can you step back a bit and redirect some of your focus from your loved one to yourself?
Can you see willingness to change as a gift you can give to yourself, and your loved one?
Perhaps the change you need relates to how you communicate — your usual ways might be getting old, you might feel the need to infuse your speech and attitude with more positivity or optimism. Perhaps it's about to how you care for yourself — could paying more attention to your body and spirit relieve some of the tension at home? Or perhaps it has something to do with letting go — whether it's guilt, shame, or the illusion of control, we so often hold on to things that are actually sinking us.
Lightening that load by confiding in someone you trust, and practicing letting go of what you cannot change in others, can do you so much good.
"Be yourself, but be as willing to change as you want your loved one to be."
As Foote, Wilkens and Kosank encapsulate so well in this phrase, our role as the family member of a struggling loved one is not limited to doing things for them. What you do for your own well-being (physical, mental, spiritual … ) will create a ripple effect that brings relief and much needed change, within you and all around you.
! ! We are incredibly pleased to announce that Kayla Solomon has begun providing a free online drop-in group for AiR members. Kayla is trained in CRAFT and is one of the most experienced psychotherapists in the region. The group will provide family members a live, CRAFT-informed support, with an emphasis on self-care. You should have begun our learning modules before attending. Total anonymity is an option if needed. To RSVP or for more info: email@example.com. Direct link to participate in meeting, Wednesdays at 6:30 PM EST: https://zoom.us/j/8218935777!!
*Beyond Addiction: How Science and Kindness Help People Change — Jeffrey Foote, PhD, Carrie Wilkens, PhD, Nicole Kosante, PhD (see more in The Supplement)